Thoughts on Praying With Jane Eyre

On being the wrong reader for a book

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While I was in Tennessee last I read nine books, and I said last week that I’d talk about one of them: Vanessa Zoltan’s Praying With Jane Eyre: Reading as a Sacred Practice. I’ve been trying to think about what to say about this book ever since I decided to write about it, and here we are, Friday morning and I’m still not quite sure. My struggle is threefold: first, I don’t think I read the blurb carefully enough and expected a different book than it is; second, my personal beliefs clashed quite a bit with the author’s; third, the book is generally well written, and does have some interesting nuggets about engaging with works we find precious.

To go back a little bit. Vanessa Zoltan is an atheist chaplain with an MDiv from Harvard Divinity, and the host of a popular podcast called Harry Potter and the Sacred Text. (I have not listened to the podcast, but friends of mine have.) A lot of her work is about engaging with secular books as a sacred practice, and that’s the gist of Praying. Here’s the cover copy, from the publisher:

Our favorite books keep us company, give us hope, and help us find meaning in a chaotic world. In this fresh and relatable work, atheist chaplain Vanessa Zoltan blends memoir and personal growth as she grapples with the notions of family legacy and identity through the lens of her favorite novel, Jane Eyre. Informed by the reading practices of medieval monks and rabbinic scholars from her training at the Harvard Divinity School and filtered through the pages of Jane Eyre as well as Little WomenHarry Potter, and The Great Gatsby, Zoltan explores topics ranging from the trauma she has inherited as the granddaughter of four Holocaust survivors to finding hope, meaning, and even magic in our deeply fractured times. Brimming with a lifelong love of classic literature and the tenderness of self-reflection, the book also reveals simple techniques for reading any work as a sacred text–from Virginia Woolf to Anne of Green Gables to baseball scorecards.

I should have paid more attention to the bolded portion - this is more a memoir than anything else, and the “sacred text” aspect spent a lot of time dealing with Jane Eyre’s more problematic aspects before coming around to “this book is kinda racist and bonkers, and it’s wild that I devoted so much time to it.” (My words, not hers.) Which felt like: well, duh. It’s a good idea to be cognizant of the problematic facets of books that we read and loved and didn’t understand the historical context of til later; I don’t ever think it’s worthwhile or healthy to hold works up as Oh No This Is Perfect, And I Will Accept No Criticism. Books are a product of the time, culture, and persons that create them, and no person is perfect! And to devote a whole book to something I covered in ENG 202: VICTORIAN LIT & CULTURE my sophomore year —that sometimes books considered classic have aspects of them that are racist and that it’s OK to feel a way about them— felt facile.

But my problem isn’t the book, it’s me, really. Reading experiences are also the product of the time, culture, and person reading them, and I’m bringing to the table my identity as cradle Episcopalian and the subsequent difficulty I had engaging with her atheism in the way she presents it on the page. Going in, I wanted a broader engagement with the idea that sacredness is what we make it, but instead I encountered a deeply personal series of essays that were about Jane Eyre and the author’s own family trauma and struggles with depression. Zoltan is frank and eloquent about how the experience of growing up with four Holocaust survivor grandparents turned her away from even the idea of religion:

“The truth was my that my parents couldn’t help it. The Holocaust, in all its vast complexity, was their home country. Its economy defined them, its laws resettled them, and its language was the base that they were always transforming from. So even though I was born nearly forty years after its end, the Holocaust is my nationality.” 

Later, she says “I wonder if part of my depression is knowing that my existence hinges on such a horrible thing having happened. How can you be grateful for a life that was ill-gotten gains? I am the fruit of the poisonous tree.” I found it uncomfortable to consider that she framed her existence in this way—obviously I can’t speak to the experience of growing up with that family history, but nonetheless, that idea bummed me tf out.

So, OK, given that I still can’t work through my own feelings about the memoir part of Praying With Jane Eyre, and found most of the Jane Eyre-specific material underwhelming, what can I take away from the sacred text aspect? Her thesis on this front is simple: “if one treats Jane Eyre as a doorstop, it is a doorstop. If one treats it as sacred, then it can be sacred.” The idea is to find meaning and sacredness outside of the enjoyment of the text itself. Which is interesting! According to Zoltan, you need three things to treat a text as sacred: “faith, rigor, and community.” Rigor and community are fairly self-explanatory, but I found her definition of faith very compelling: basically, you have to believe that the more time you spend with the text, the more gifts it gives you.

Not to bring Doomsday Book into things again (I can hear your groans from here! Your chagrin nourishes me!) but as I finished rereading it earlier this week, I found myself living through this idea. I found parallels to our current time that I hadn’t noticed before. I found new feelings towards the characters, especially Lady Imeyne and her performative piety, and Mr. Dunworthy and his anxiety about Kivrin. And poor Badri, woof. Time spent with a text we have read and loved already is rarely wasted, whether we read it for stimulation or comfort or the voice of a familiar friend.

I’ll close out this week by giving describing two of the techniques Zoltan lists at the end of the book for engaging with your own sacred texts.

  • florilegia: latin for “gathering flowers.” As you read, if you come across a sentence that particularly pleases you/says something to you, write it down without annotating where it’s from. Later, read through this collection as though it was its own text. Do this every time you read the original work.

  • Havruta: an act of pair study rooted in the yeshiva tradition, in which students sit in pairs with nothing but the Talmud between them. Find a person to share a text with, and one of you bring a question about the text to the other. But the person who brings the question also has to bring an answer. In the next step, person B listens to the question and the answer, then gives their own response, and then asks a question inspired by the first one and provides an answer to begin the conversation


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This week Choices Were Made all around the league. The Canes acquired a racist. The Habs drafted an accused sexual predator. The Caps re-acquired the goalie they lost last week to the Kraken. The Knights traded Marc-André Fleury to Chicago, of all places, and he found out about it through social media. Their flagship player! Traded! To Chicago! WYD, Vegas? (Come to think of it, a lot of the trade shenanigans were goalie-related; Civil War Husband Braden Holtby will be a Dallas Star for a year, and Frederik Andersen is going to be a Hurricane, much to Auston Matthews’ chagrin.)


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